Soon to become a MAJOR MOTION PICTURE :)

i dont know what to say anymore,
its so strange how i feel about you,
and my heart just starts racing,
when i think about you.

that love story's so clear in my mind,
i want it to end up how i always dreamed,
but i know,
it's hard.

all the stupid complications,
and endless love,
it so difficult to know,
when im with you.

what is right?
what is wrong?
...

October

those sweet-smelling winds,
just spell out October,
they engulf you,
you forget about September.

the leaves stay bright red,
but they start to fall,
you see big piles,
in which children start to lull.

jackets start coming,
long sleeve shirts too,
leg warmers and sweatshirts,
and jeans two by two.

The holidays are just ahead,
in november and december,
but right now it only,
the beautiful October.

My life just went,
by my face,
and out the door.

Never knew why,
It went so fast,
so far away.

I don't know how,
It passed me by,
without me feeling a thing.

work in progress.

Change.

If I could go back,
You know that I would,
To change everything,
And know that I could.

If I could go back,
That would be so great,
So I wouldn't have to cry,
Night after night.

Those tears that run,
they stream down your face,
you cant stop them though,
you wish that you could.

I'll be the one,
I want to be,
To change everything,
So I'll live free.

It would be so great,
If I could go back,
To change everything,
So life wouldn't crack.

It feels so weird,
To look on the past,
And know what I should,
Should have done.

If I could go back,
You know that I would,
To change everything,
And know that I could.

If I could go back,
That would be so great,
So I wouldn't have to cry,
Night after night.

Those tears that run,
they stream down your face,
you cant stop them though,
you wish that you could.

Those stupid shows,
That show you a way,
A way of life to get,
You'll go crazy.

It pains me to say,
Life will not change,
But I will hope,
Till end the end of my days.

And maybe one day,
When the good are rescued,
I will remember,
The days of the past.

If I could go back,
You know that I would,
To change everything,
And know that I could.

If I could go back,
That would be so great,
So I wouldn't have to cry,
Night after night.

Those tears that run,
they stream down your face,
you cant stop them though,
you wish that you could.

Those days of the past,
They so blissful,
Like Christmas Day...
Day after day.

I had no cares,
or responsibility,
It was so wonderful,
While it lasted.

Then that one day,
that shattered it all,
It changed me,
For the good and the bad...

If I go back,
You know that I would...


My First Song

tears

those tears,
they stream down your face,
you cant stop them,
though you wish you could.

they do nothing,
but stall time,
until you figure out,
what to do.

they don't help,
make you feel better,
or figure out anything for you,
all they do is stall time.

its sad

don't you hate,
those movies and shows,
that contradict life,
that have a perfect ending.

they paint,
an impossible picture in your head,
to be crushed by todays society,
to crush our dreams.

they eventually send tears,
down that face,
that should not have felt sadness,
for many more years.

its sad to feel,
your life will never,
be the way,
you want it to be.

deep breath

in your life,
when everything is coming down,
its nice to sit at the top of the world,
and watch everything.

you still there,
watch the stars,
and think,
about everything.

everything,
seems to be fine,
until you climb down,
and see the chaos.

and the only thing,
you can do,
in take a deep breath,
and work through it.

someone

i need someone,
someone to talk to,
some i can walk with in the halls,
without feeling awkward.

i need a friend,
to talk to everyday,
when im feeling sad,
or happy.

i need someone,
i can rely on,
i can tell everything to,
i need a friend.

ledge

i feel like im on a ledge,
i have two choices,
to stay safe inside,
or to take the plunge and fall.

my life has been safe so far,
but i want more,
i want to take that plunge,
but that takes a lot,
and i don't know if im up to it.

i dont know,
if its the right thing to do,
the wrong thing to do,
the only thing to do.

i dont know anymore,
i want to take that plunge,
and fall,
but i once again remain on the ledge.

myself

the stars,
that light my path,
lighten my face,
when i don't know what to do.

they help me make a choice,
when i'm walking my lonely road,
trying to figure out,
who i am supposed to be.

the stars,
light my face,
when the tears,
stream down my face.

im trying to find,
myself,
who i am,
who im supposed to be...

im trying to find myself.

love you more

the sand under my feet,
the sun slowly setting,
the waves quietly crashing,
could do nothing but remind me of you.

all those love stories,
in movies,
and tv shows,
remind me that i love you.

your dark hair,
your beautiful eyes,
you smiling face,
kills me everyday.

i dont know why,
i love you more everyday,
through everything that has happened,
i still love you more.

Yellow house

that yellow house,
that started all the memories,
the one i grew up in.

i was the little angel,
the little princess,
the way i wanted was the way it went.

it was my playground,
my castle,
my puffy little cloud.

i had it before all the fights,
before all the moves,
before all those responsibilities.

i was a carefree little kid,
with the brain of a mastermind,
and the life of a little baby.

Oh, i miss that yellow house,
i miss those simple days,
i miss just having fun,

but i also remember,
life has just begun.

wild and free

the forest,
wild and free,
like I want to be.

the ivy,
that grows on my trees,
is my winter coat.

the birds,
are my faithful companions,
that come to see me everyday.

the bulldozers,
that tear me down,
take away from my wilderness.

the buildings,
that go up instead of me,
take away my freedom.

[basically what im trying to say here is: we are killing ourselves. All the beautiful things in nature we admire will be gone if we dont do anything about it soon, and we do have to do something.... and the sooner the better. I know this only reaches a few people, but I hope today you decide to make a difference, even if the way you make it is small.]

Imperfections

We all have our own imperfections,
Like a brown leaf on a tree,
or dirt in our gravel.

But it is how we embrace these "imperfections,"
that is what is most important,
No, that is what matters.

You write your own life story,
And if you try,
Nothing can stand in your way.

Candle

Candles burn so bright and strong,
Like the hope in my heart,
And love in my soul.

But eventually it dims away,
Your hopes are diminishing,
Your love is lost.

And as the candle lowers to nothing,
There is usually another,
To take its place.

But dont take advantage of it,
Your live's candles are in limited supply.

removed.

a tear

i glide across the cloud-like ice,
feeling nothing,
but the sharp edge on ice,
drifting... drifting...

i feel nothign beside me,
nothing around me but,
all the lost dreams,
welling up inside me.

so here is a tear,
to all the lost memories,
and here is a tear,
to all my forgotten hopes.

So Much To Dream

My dream was simple,
to get to the top,
i've hit an obstacle,
i can't seem to get around.

i wanna get back and up,
but there is so much to do,
there is so much to say,
there is so much to dream.

My Life

This song im working on.

Round, and round, and round, and round,
Round, and round, and round, and round.

My life's spinnin' all around,
It has it's ups and downs,
I don't know what to do with myself.

Backstabbers and those liars,
Why do they even exist,
They are just a downfall in this society.

My life's spinnin' all around,
These people surround me daily,
I don't know what to do with them.

All thats good has long been dead,
It died with innocence and purity,
And now all that's left is wickedness.
(Verse written mostly by Ivan)

My Second Ode to Middle School

i've struggled through all the changes,
all the ups and downs,
all the bs and love,
and all the crap you put me through.

now i'm leaving,
u will be left behing,
a fragment of my mind,
not even a memory.

i will remember the good times,
but the people will not be there,
i just want to say good bye middle school,
once and for all.

my shattered dreams

my dreams,
were high and great,
my expectations,
were just as well.

i have searched in every corner,
found my place,
but then got shot back to reality,
and all i saw...

was my shattered dreams.

my place

i was supposed to reach the sky,
never look back,
do the best i can,
never fall back.

all i have reached is a deep trench,
i've looked back and regretted it,
i've given up,
and i still keep falling further and further.

i was supposed to,
do whatever i wanted,
reach my dreams,
i wish that had happened.

but one bad thing happened after another,
but i guess that was supposed to happen,
because god doesn't give us obstacles,
for no reason.

obstacles give us character,
said a brave man that fought for his country,
i cling to the kingdom of god,
searching for my destiny.

i thought my destiny,
was where i could never hurt,
i would be loved,
and i had the courage to stand.

but that place was taken away,
by these obstacles,
so im searching again,
i hope i find my place.

A Song By Someone I Know

I’m falling off a cliff right now
But no ones there to save me
I’m falling into something unknown
That’s making me delusional

What’s all this talk about you and me
How can I feel you when I’m falling through air
I see your face and try to reach it
But somehow it’s just a mirage in the distance

There may be someone else with me
Has that ever crossed your mind
He might be there for me everyday
But I’m probably wishing my life away

I’m still falling through this long descend
I don’t think it will ever end
Feeling weightless is sort of nice
Since stress can’t bear me down

My mind is splitting into two
It’s been like that since I met you
Maybe I should just let you go
I don’t know if you want me to though

Gravity is swelling in my body again
And my heart bursts open to find you again
We probably won’t see each other anymore
But here is my message for you to explore

Whenever you feel like you need me again
When you’re heart is yearning for some passion
Just jump off that cliff and I’ll be waiting there for you
And together, we can be weightless…

it depends on you

we got a little closer,
we took some laughs,
but in the end,
you didnt care.

well,
im not that girl,
who hangs around forever,
so make up your mind.

im sick of waiting around,
im over you,
don't need you,
but if you're there,
i won't complain.

i won't complain,
if your mine,
someone else's,
or no one's,
i just want you close.

im sorry,
but thats what i want,
but it all depends on you.

i miss you

i cant stand,
ignoring you,
being without you.

i see you looking,
but u quickly look away,
but i keep starring cuz im falling for you.

everyone tells me not to,
they think its stupid,
i just don't know.

i want you to be with me,
i need you,
and i want you.

i don't know why,
and i don't know how,
but i really need you.

in case you've started to care,
i just wanted to say,
i miss you.

me without you

i can help but to cry,
over the memories,
i love you so,
and you loved me back.

but i was to late to respond,
and your love began to fade,
and mine went all the stronger.

and now,
all thats left is,
me without you.

i will not fear

weird feelings growing,
overflowing,
pouring out my soul,
but thats not my goal.

i dont want to be this girl,
that cries so much her vision's a swirl.
i dont want to grieve and mope,
but i find it hard to hope.

but in the end,
i will be amend,
sooner or later,
ill be the greater.

so i will stand up even in fear,
and not be a scared deer,
in the headlights,
but fly up to great heights.

thinking about love

i think of you,
every night,
every day,
'till the day i die,
i will think of you.

you may not love me now,
but i still love you,
so when you turn around,
and realize you love me,
ill be here waiting for you.

recognize me

im here,
im there,
im everywhere,
you cant miss me.

unless you do
then
you must be blind
because im everywhere.

so just in case you are blind
ill just sit and wait
until you turn around
and recognize me.

Confused

you meet me there,
say you're sorry,
i say so...
you say it over.

she pops out,
with that other girl,
im outta there,
dont want to deal with the pain again.

i run over to the closest house,
where friends are ready,
to claw your eyes out,
but i might not want to.

i might like you,
i might not,
but tell me the truth.
do you?

The Past

the past,
it was so beautiful,
and unique,
i didnt know what to do with it.

i should have,
savored every moment,
like it was my last,
but i didnt and now its all the past.

my mask

my mask,
was a smile,
it helped me survive,
this world.

my mask,
made me,
seem happy,
when nothing else did.

my mask,
helped me through the times,
and sometimes,
with friends.

my mask,
is my savior,
to hide my true feelings,
then regret it later.



Inspired by Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury.

BFFs

what happened to the F in BFF,
and what about the B,
just another letter to kick to the trash?
for F to stand alone.

as i lay around thinking,
BFFs, yah right.
nothing is forever,
or at least thats what it turned out to be.

promises are made,
to be broken,
rarely are they kept,
only if you really care.

and when you care about one single word,
againist a BFF,
then you arent really BFFs,
not even even Fs.

i just wanted to say,
i didn't deserve what you did,
and i was wrong,
but so were you.

The One

We started strong,
Throughout the year,
We added another,
We were the fab 4.

I didn't like this girl,
And we "fought" constantly,
But we never fought,
We were still friends.

The next year,
Me and you were just friends,
But with this other girl,
I spent the year with.

The next year,
One went away,
Then after that,
Our friendship vanished.

We started back up,
But only gradually,
But then my impatience,
Kept stopping the process.

Yes I may have said,
Some stupid things,
All I have to say is,
Don't be hatin' and,

I MISS YOU,
The old you,
The one that,
Would help me when I was crying,
Be there for me,
THE one.

Heartache

The sky grows dark,
My mind shuts off,
My heart stops pumping,
My headache has stopped.

I awake in a strange place,
Puffy, white clouds extend to the sea,
People in white with bright smiles,
Look at me, understandingly.

I stumble around,
With a frown plastered onto my face,
My headache has stopped,
But my heartache has not.

Everyday

Here or there,
It's everywhere,
Up or down,
It's all aroun'.

Mine was simple,
It's all you,
I love you,
More and More.

Everyday.

Failed Expectations

You come to me,
Proud as can be,
But all I can say is,
I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I let you down,
I'm sorry I failed you,
I'm sorry I did this,
I'm sorry.

You expectations weren't grand,
Just a simple "A",
Was all you wanted,
I'm sorry.

Your forlorn face,
Makes me burst into tears,
And all I can say is,
I'm sorry.

Still

You betray me,
Make me an outsider,
I say it's over,
And you pause,
Then say Why?

I simply don't answer,
And you wonder for weeks,
But there's a simple secret,
I'm still in love with you.

Gone Forever

I hear his name,
My heart beats,
Faster and faster,
It almost skips a beat.

Then I hear the news,
I get shot back to reality,
And I realize that this event,
Will change my life.

Now he's gone,
Gone forever,
My love seems to have,
Left with him.

Love song

i'm searching for Love,
True Love that is,
it's a rollercoaster ride,
up and down and all around.

you look me in the eyes,
i catch a Glimpse of Heaven,
we share a laugh,
we smile brightly.

i just want to say,
one thing,
your Smile makes my Heart sing,
another Love song.

Dream

(n) an escape, a white fluffy cloud, or a dark nothing nothingness.

Together

We used to cling,
Cry in each others arms,
Share deep secrets,
And laugh through the night.

But then one day,
I was in a fight,
You took the others side,
And we split apart.

I came home in tears,
Almost every day,
Went to a shrink,
Trying to understand.

I just wanted to ask,
What did I do?
Why did you go against me?
And have a simple answer.

We started up again,
A little later,
But nothing could make up,
For that lost time.

You have your own problems,
And I have mine,
But i just ask,
The we solve them together.

Ode to Middle School

I blend with the crowd,
But I don't exactly flow,
I feel so different,
Where should i go?

If I dont fit belong here,
I will never belong there,
My heart's in shreds,
Of another days despair.

I just want to "fit in,"
Be in "normality,"
But unfortunately,
That's not part of my personality.



To my bf in art =]

Date of Discovery

(Translated to the 2008 written language)

Dear Frank,
It is March of 3038.
Excavation Site: the large connected area.

My cornekel(boss) is named Rennchlozzy. We discovered "The Peach State" today. This excavation was one of the last in the "United States" discovery. So far we have noticed that girls drew connected tear dropletts() everywhere and odd mechanism were used for communication. Myspaces as they were called seemed to be like fungly (drugs! hehe), addictive and obsessive. Boys and girls wrote "love songs"as they were called, of course we would call them "Megetro Faricole" now a days. These songs consisted of sorries and statements of goodbyes and so on, but I don't understand one thing-- Yuremys(marriages) are arranged now, but then they were not what a shame. They were so stupid back then about such things. Fate is fate (but now your parents help decide your fate). They should learn from their obvious mistakes, love freely (without great fretlisky-- kinda like specicificism-- be happy, and hold their head up high.



Marial (Sincerely),
Sofira Meguraona Torimily



PS 3038 language version soon to come.

Reincarnation

I hear a dog bark,
My simple breathing pierces the night air,
It's the dead of the night,
Peaceful and eerie.

My soft pillow,
Stifles my cries,
But I want them to be heard,
To be helped and nurtured.

Then a beautiful, striking sky arises from nowhere,
And my cries seem to have been heard,
I seem to have been cared for,
The dead of night has reincarnated.

The Hole in My Heart

You say your leaving,
I say I'll miss you,
But then I say I like you,
And you love another.

Words cannot describe what I'm feeling,
Sorrow, Loneliness, Idiotism.
Nothing can compare,
To the hole in my heart.

Finally

I'm finally free,
Of all the expectations,
From all the needs,
I'm free to fly.

I'm finally alive,
To do as I please,
To do what I want,
To run away from expectations.

I'm finally done,
With you I was trapped,
Now I'm free, alive, and done with you,
It finally came.

Unnamed

I’m tired of being sorry,
When I’m not.
I’m sick of sucking up to you,
When I shouldn’t.

So maybe you were right,
But I was right too,
But we were both wrong,
So let just hug the drama…
Goodbye.


Inspired by “I’m Tired of Being sorry” by Enrique Iglesias

Snow

A feather falling from the sky,
A chilly breeze runs through my hair,
Snow angels lie on the ground,
Snowballs fly through the air.

Snow is a dream.
A white, fluffy dream,
A blanket over my tears,
A cover over my sorrows.

S.N.O.W.

Something that falls through the air.
Nothing can compare.
Obviously perfect and beautiful.
What else is there?

When Life is Life

When all seems lost,
Climb another mountain,
Run another mile,
Watch another sunrise.

When the world seems like it’s crashing down,
In all its depth,
It’s only the beginning,
A new start.

When life is life,
Grab its reins and fly.
Take its lemons and make lemonade,
And make the best out of everything.

Quote from The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants movie

"It seems as though those who have lost everything can still love while those who have lost nothing seem as though they cannot."

(Or something like that)

Only For the Moment

I laugh at your jokes,
Smile to your face,
But I have only forgotten for the moment,
For soon in the next,
You will lie again to my face.

Were you faking?
Or were you lying?
I’m sick of the things you do.
So only for the moment,
I’ll smile.

I Have a Secret

Laughing and Smiling,
Through all the stupid jokes,
Through all the stupid rumors,
I have a Secret.

But now that you’re leaving,
I guess I should tell,
Or it will tear a hole through my heart.
I have a Secret.

Through all the mean words,
And all the breaks and reunions,
I still have one thing to say,
I have a Secret.

Although I laughed at what they said,
They knew me more than I did myself,
The Truth is,
I have a Secret.

And now I will tell you,
For I will probably not see you for a while,
I will and do miss you,
But there is one small extension…

I LIKE YOU.

Swerving

You’ve shut the door,
But I hope it’s only a window,
But as I hope,
My heart is swerving out of control.

You talk to me for hours,
Then in the next moment you turn around and hurt me,
My heart is swerving out of control,
From all the lost memories.

You’re not who I thought you were,
I’m swerving out of control,
Out of all the lost memories,
It’s taking up space and consuming my mind.

I’m swerving out of control,
Out of all the lost memories,
It’s taking up space and consuming my mind,
I’ve crashed, but I can’t go back…

Do Something

Life goes through its ups and downs,
Laughter and Joy,
Tears and Sorrow.

We all like to think,
Everything happens for a reason,
Every time something happens,
God is teaching us a lesson.

Life goes through its ups and downs,
Laughter and Joy,
Tears and Sorrow.

Sometimes life is hard,
Sometimes you laud life,
But most of the time life is confusing,
And you don’t know what to do with it.

Life goes through its ups and downs,
Laughter and Joy,
Tears and Sorrow.

Life takes its path by you,
You are your life’s guide,
So encourage it,
Support it.

Life goes through its ups and downs,
Laughter and Joy,
Tears and Sorrow.

Life gives you everything,
Good, Bad, Happy, and Sad,
Do what you want with it,
Just do something with it.

Memories Long Gone

All the smiles,
All the laughs,
All the jokes,
Were they real?
Or is it just me.

Or maybe something changed,
I wish I could ask,
Because I can’t stand the suspense you’ve left behind,
I can’t stand how I’ll never know,
And I can’t stand how you rub it in my face,
Without feeling anything,
Without shedding one tear of the memories long gone.

You threw me away,
As if I was last season fashions,
Without one thought,
Without one look back.

Here I am looking back,
Wishing and hoping,
When you don’t care,
You’ll never look back,
Even after I shed every tear,
All the mean looks shot my way,
Declare it,
Make it perfectly clear,
All the laughs, jokes, smiles, and fun,
Are just Memories long Gone,
Never to come back.

Time Travel

The wind rushes past you,
As you leave everything "behind" you,
It’s a chance to start all over,
It’s a chance to start fresh,
It’s a chance to redo your past to make the future easier.

You leave your home in the your present,
To find your home in the past,
To relive the moments,
And to fix the tragedies.

But you go back,
And your present is now the future,
And your future is further away,
But this was invented in the future.

So maybe forwards is the best way to go.

The past may be fixed,
The present may be cherished,
And the future may be made,
But it was, is, and will be All Yours.

A Heart Metaphor (Extended)

The heart is like a balloon,
It's soft and easy to break.
You can play with the heart as you can with a baloon,
But in the end it either breaks or deflates.

One Thing

Even though I haven’t let go of the past,
You make me smile,
When I cry,
You make me happy.

We do things together,
And talk to each other,
Share secrets,
And make people jealous. =D

I cherish you (in a good way babe),
You are my boo,
And we are twin gangstas for life.

One thing I need to ask of you,
Never let go of my hand,
Never let go,
Never.




(Please and Thanks)

I Can't

I’m sitting here wondering,
What did I do?
Wishing you could answer,
I need to say goodbye, but I can’t.

I remember those two years,
We clung to each other,
Helped each other,
And now I don’t know.

I my heart needs you,
But my heart also doesn’t want you.
I need to let go,
But I simply can’t.

You were my life raft,
But I’ve found others.
While you left me to rot in the sun,
I’ve found others (hey babe).

You try to make me jealous,
Maybe I am but not of you,
But of what we used to have.

Now I listen to that song,
Remember the good ol’ days,
I wish I could turn back time,
But I cant.

I need to let go,
But I can’t.
I should and need to,
But I simply can’t.