mary jane.

she helps you forget,
she makes you happy,
she makes you laugh,

she makes it better,
she makes it easier.

she makes us fall in love,
she makes us want each other.

but im jealous of her,
you might like her better than me,
you prefer her company,
and forget mine.

because she makes you forget,
and makes you happy,
i dont have to be there,
and you dont need me.

maybe you should just have mary jane,
and forget about me,
for good.

i dont have her anymore,
not right now,
would it be different if she were my friend?
maybe, but shes not,
not right now anyway.

you;re more faithful to mary jane,
than you are to me.

you see her everyday,
you have her every hour,
she makes you not want me any longer.

i want you to have a little less mary,
and a little more me,
because i miss you more than mary.

damn boat.

floating precariously,
leaky and damp,
water slowly seeping inside.

contemplating,
not alone though,
another solitary person,
as a sole companion.

are we going somewhere?
not east,
nor my beloved west.

slowly sinking downwards,
no, not south,
but down.

towards the murky waters below,
we try,
oh we try,
but this sinking boat cannot be stopped.

soon our sorrows will be drowned,
along with our helpless bodies,
and our feeble boat.

lost.

sounds vibrating through the evening air.
still, but lively.
dead, but alive.

table sturdy,
pen in hand,
only a candle for company.

madly scribbling,
thoughts and feelings,
pain and sadness.

miserably alone,
but comforted by thoughts,
friended by nature.

pain in my heart,
broken pieces scattered,
nowhere to be found.

mind lost,
clouded by emotion,
anything but rational.

sanity questionable,
craziness undoubtable,
heartbroken, promised.

not alone.

cold ground illuminated by the stars,
here and there and everywhere.

you can see them too,
twinkling and shining.

youre so very far away,
but in common, we have the sky.

talking on the phone,
about love or life,
or trying to find constellations.

i love the sound of your voice,
even if its through the phone,
and since you see what i see,
maybe i can pretend that right now,

im not alone.

a compelling journey.

to the east,
morning rays glow,
waking my dreary eyes.

i shield myself,
from another day,
and gaze towards the west.

i know youre somewhere that way,
and i wish i could just start walking,
until i walk right back into your arms.

i could take all 2,599 miles,
or maybe we could just meet in the middle,
the middle of nowhere,
safe and hidden from everyone else.

we could run away,
from all responsibilities,
hand in hand.

needing nothing,
but love,
and each other.

the rain.

i remember that night,
it seems so long ago,
that you and i walked into the rain,
and walked out together.

it was no longer,
just you, or just me,
it was us.

it wasnt so long ago,
that we were still together,
we sat by each other under that tree,
did what we could to make this bearable.

but now,
we're miles apart,
nothing can be done,
nothing can be fixed.

today,
i stand in this rain,
and we cried together,
just the rain and i.

the rain was like us,
falling together,
onto grass or ground.

but then washed away,
washed away,
so mercilessly.

and i cant wait until the day,
when we can meet in the rain,
and be washed together again.

please be back soon.

youll change,
and i wont get to see you grow,
but ill always love you,
ill always love you so.

i wish i could kiss you goodnight.
tonight, and all the other nights,
all the other nights,
we'll never have.

but i wont forget the moments we had,
just so we can remember them,
when we're together again.

freedom.

green grass wet under my sole,
as i slowly walk through this field,
shoes in hand,
chasing freedom.

if i keep walking,
maybe ill find it,
whatever it is,
whatever it needs to be.

maybe enlightenment,
or perhaps a new train of thought.

i need some peace of mind,
i need to stop doubting every step i take.

the familiar look of home is in sight,
is this surrender?
only for tonight.