the lighter to my heart.

your smile lit my happiness,
but the lighter quickly extinguished.

my smile doesnt seem to make the same effect,
i want love and happiness,
not wonder and pain.

i sick of thinking this through.
i just want to do,
i dont want to plan.

this sky

staring at the cloudy sky,
thinking of the few words you said,
simple conversation.

thoughts in my head,
swirled wildly.

my imagination looking for something more,
always two steps ahead,
i always three steps behind.

if i could,
i would run into your arms,
but here i am.
staring at the dark cloudy sky.

a destiny, but is it mine?

it was something i was destined to be,
it put itself in my way,
i couldnt stop it,
the inevitable.

it put a smile on my face,
and tears when things went wrong,
it was my destiny,
and i wanted it to be there.

but one day,
it was too hard,
i gave up my dream,
and myself i was never again.

everyday i regret my decision,
a memory in my room,
or just several words from a friend,
bring the sorrowful tears again.