fogging up my answers.

my heart's in the fog,
confusing thoughts filter,
finding no clarity,
what do i do now?
where do i go now?

right now,
i want this fog to disappear,
just disappear,
right into thin air,
i need answers.

answers to these questions,
the questions that run,
through my head,
in this hideous
and terrible fog.

ever

screw the salty water,
that runs on my face,
i dont need it,
whats it gonna help?

i need an outlet,
and with noone to listen,
this salty water is,
all thats there.

as i listen to someone else's inspiration,
i cant help but to think,
when mine will come,
or it shall ever?

pain.

this unhappiness,
seems to take comfort in my pain.
it revels in my feeling
of disrepair and darkness.

it seems to like its extended stay,
and eats me like a parasite,
but it doesnt leave,
it clutches on like a leech.

im blinded.

these candles flicker,
in this dark room,
i only see you,
and you me.

the music doesnt falter,
the sight is beautiful,
the flowers are wonderful
i only see you.

im blinded,
perspective changed is mine,
when i see you,
only you.

dont mock me!

this rain,
its mocking me,
its mocking me,
im afraid.

its the way i see it,
while i tear inside,
outdoors happy rain falls,
its mocking me.

people dance in this horrid rain,
i can only cry in this rain,
its mocking me,
everything is mocking me.

fingers.

for what so i
owe this honor,
my lovely friend,
dear friend of mine.

for a simple,
hello,
or a speak of my name,
tis wonderful.

a simple grace,
to keep me there,
hanging on tight,
with just fingertips.

swirls i see.

everything around me
is swirling all around me,
inside or outside,
it doesnt matter.

i could fall,
i should stand,
but all the swirling i cannot stand,
still occurs.

oh, the ground,
how did it get
so close to my face,
ow.

the swirling wont stop,
even with my head
to the cold concrete,
why wont it stop?

it should, it really should.
oh i see darkness,
envelope me!
take this horrible swirling away.

through the wind i want to fly.

on a red-tinted bike,
i ride.

i ride for,
my soul, my heart, my life.

to feel free,
in the wind,
i ride.

and all these things,
on my red-tinted bike,
i represent.

HERMANTHEMERMAN!

"herman the merman!"
we cried,
lets go to sea!
we implied.

together, we shall
with long of hair of yellow,
and a bow,
and an arrow.

to capture the sea,
and ruleth
over the ocean,
just like Macbeth.

the yearly cold months.

winter,
my sweet soul revived,
after a
sheet of snow fallen.

fresh and new,
a beginning,
ive said,
indeed.

funny how something
new can come
when you are coldest,
or celebrating the end.

but a new cycle
it starts.
and a new beginning
it revives.

i dont need this mask. i dont want it either.

masked i stand here,
enjoying my dear time,
here on this earth,
outside i laugh and smile.

its different,
suffer, i do, inside,
my tears streaming
down the cheeks of my soul.

inner conflicts,
rage and fight to the death,
end the battle,
decision has been made.

so now outside,
truly i can smile and
laugh so truly,
the mask has been set down.

song change.

song change,
i like this one,
lets listen,
shall we?

i like this one,
love indeed,
with crazy guitars,
and sad undertones.

but too quickly,
its over,
silence spreads,
song change.

dream invitation.

what do i do,
when i fall asleep thinking of you,
the dream of someone,
someone else.

what do i do,
if i do not care about the other,
but only of you,
whom i truly need.

should i forget?
should i think more into this?
should i dream of you, perhaps, next time.
dreams i wish i could control.

i think i shall just let it go.
think of you some more,
and perhaps dream about you,
next time.

sincerely, your memories.

lets preserve the memories,
in a picture,
in a memory,
in a thought.

ill always remember this,
my fourth,
but truly,
the best.

these ups and down are killing me,
i just need one long up,
and ill be satisfied,
and ill be truly yours.

all stupid people form a line. ->

surrounded by stupidity,
i stand,
and i yell,
until i cannot yell any longer.

my voice gets tired,
i cannot speak my point,
i cannot leave though,
i need to prove my point.

i need someone to help me,
when my voice grow tired,
we will stand together,
against the stupidity around us.

next time a heart rolls out into the middle of the hallway.

when i see you,
i see it,
but when you see me,
do you see it too?

i would really hope you did,
but acting so indifferent,
i cannot say i see,
if you do indeed.

these words, i hope
will show on my face,
when i do see it,
so you see too.

do i have to make
more obvious because
i dont think i can.
im not an outright person.

but i hope you see it
like i do, so we
can walk hand in hand,
next time i see you.

somewhere, the obvious.

the obvious,
they say they can see it,
can you?
or do you not want to.

i want to feel,
the feeling,
if it is being
reciprocated.

i dont want to feel
this feeling alone.
i want to feel
that i belong in someones heart.

this is not a spur of the moment opinion.

in my mind,
you're all mapped out,
i can comprehend,
but you're hiding something.

we all are,
i just hope,
you can tell me,
and ill listen.

i always will,
its not hard,
ill give you a hand,
believe me.

i want this,
i want to help,
not suddenly,
but completely.