surprise!

i wanted to surprise you,
show up randomly,
with a smile,
and a hug.

we called,
oh yes we did,
approval made.

say hello,
walk down stairs,
hello again,
to the couch!

far away he is,
im okay with that,
games we play.

later, later he presences himself,
by my side,
next to me.

warmth glowing from his arm,
radiating onto my cold side,
cold from all the brokenness inside,
i finally feel warm.

heart pounding,
breath taking,
your face near mine.

its time to go?
oh no, well maybe another time.

hug goodbye,
please stay here,
i finally feel warm,
you know a secret of mine,
and you didnt run away,
please let me stay in your arms.

off in the car,
i reluctantly say bye.